MINDFULNESS FOR DUMMIES PART 5

Seeing the Connection between Mind and Body Imagine you're scared of spiders. As you walk downstairs before dawn, you can see a shape on the floor in the gloom.

'It's a spider!', you think. Your heart starts pounding and you begin to sweat. You're not sure whether you should even move, in case you disturb the spider. Your thoughts go wild. Then you look again and notice that the shape doesn't look quite right. You switch on the light to discover it's only a mark on the carpet! You feel relieved.

You probably found very different thoughts and feelings in the two different circumstances

. By understanding that your thoughts and feelings are influenced by your interpretation of a situation, you're less likely to react negatively. Mindfulness allows you to become more aware of your thoughts and feelings from moment to moment, and offers you the choice to respond to a situation in a different way, knowing that your thoughts are just thoughts, or interpretations, rather than facts.

Discovering Mindfulness-Based Cognitive Therapy (MBCT) Mindfulness-based cognitive therapy (MBCT) is an eight-week group programme based on the mindfulness-based stress reduction (MBSR) course described in Chapter 9.

. The MBSR course has been found to be very helpful for people with a range of physical and psychological problems. MBCT was specifically adapted for those who've suffered repeated episodes of depression. Research so far has proven that MBCT is 50 per cent more effective than the usual treatment for those suffering from three or more episodes of depression.

Pleasant and Unpleasant Experiences In everyday life, you experience a whole range of different experiences.

. They can all be grouped into pleasant, unpleasant and neutral experiences. Pleasant experiences are the ones you enjoy, like listening to the birds singing or watching your favorite television program me. Unpleasant experiences may include having to sit in a traffic jam or dealing with a difficult customer at work. Neutral experiences are the ones you just don't even notice, like the different object in the room you're in at the moment, or the taste of the tea or coffee you're drinking. Mindfulness encourages you to become curious about all aspects of these experiences.

By considering depression in a detached way, you become more detached from the illness.

. You see depression as a human condition rather than something that affects you personally and almost no one else. You see depression as a condition that's treatable through taking appropriate steps.

Here's a mindfulness meditation you can try to help you through your pain:

1. Adopt any position that you feel comfortable in for a few minutes. 2. Feel the sensation of your own breathing. Be aware of your breath with a lightness, a kindness and a sense of gratitude as far as you can. 3. Notice how the pain grabs your attention time and again. Try not to criticise yourself for this. Understand that this is a difficult practice and guide your awareness gently back to the feeling of the in-breath and outbreath around the nose, chest, belly or wherever else you find it most easy to focus on. Continue for a few minutes. 4. Now bring your attention to the sensation of the pain itself. This may feel frightening, or you may be very reluctant to try moving your attention to the pain. However, if you've never done this before, why not give it a go? Imagine your breath going into and out of the centre of the pain, or however close you can comfortably move to the pain. 5. You may find saying the following words to yourself helpful, as you breathe in and out. You may want to make a nice, slow recording of it - perhaps with music in the background if you like - and play the recording back to yourself:

Here's a mindful exercise for anxiety:

1. Get comfortable and sit with a sense of dignity and poise on a chair or sofa. Ask yourself: 'What am I experiencing now, in the present moment?' Reflect on the thoughts flowing through your mind, emotions arising in your being, and physical sensations in your body. As best you can, open up to the experiences in the here and now for a few minutes. 2. Place your hand on your belly and feel your belly rising and falling with your breath. Sustain your attention in this area. If anxious thoughts grasp your attention, acknowledge them but come back to the present moment and, without self-criticism if possible, focus back on the in- and out- breath. Continue for a few minutes. 3. When you're ready, expand your awareness to get a sense of your whole body breathing, with wide and spacious attention as opposed to the focused attention on the breath alone. If you like, imagine the contours of your body breathing in and out, which the body does, through the skin. Continue for as long as you want to. 4. Note your transition from this mindfulness exercise back to your everyday life. Continue to suffuse your everyday activities with this gentle, welcoming awareness, just to see what effect mindful attention has, if any. If you find the practice supportive, come back to this meditation to find some solace whenever you experience intrusive thoughts or worries.

Listen to the urge surfing meditation (Track 21). The steps when you have an urge are:

1. Find a comfortable posture. You can sit, lie down, or even walk slowly - whatever you prefer. See whether you can relax your body a little and let go of any areas of tension. Begin by taking a deep breath and slowly breathing out. 2. Notice that you have an urge to smoke, drink, gamble or whatever else it is for you. 3. Be mindful of your body. Turn your attention to your physical bodily sensations. Where do you feel this urge in your body? Is it in one particular place or is it all over your body? What's does the urge actually feel like? 4. Be mindful of your thoughts. Notice and acknowledge the thoughts that are arising for you right now. Is it a familiar pattern of thoughts? Are they negative or judgemental thoughts? See whether you can step back from those thoughts, as if you're an observer of the experience, rather than getting too caught up in the thoughts, if you can. Watch the thoughts like bubbles floating away. 5. Be mindful of your feelings. Notice the feeling of the urge. The feeling may be very uncomfortable. That doesn't make it bad or good - it's just the nature of the feeling. Notice your judgement of 'I like this experience' or 'I don't like this experience'. Remember that the feeling isn't dangerous or threatening in itself. 6. Allow the experience to be as it is. See whether you can be with the experience without a need to get rid of it or to react to it by engaging in the behaviour that's not helpful for you. Just practise being with the experience, the urge, the craving, the compulsion, in the present moment. 7. Notice how the urge is changing. Perhaps the urge is increasing or decreasing for you. Maybe it's staying just the same. 8. If the urge is increasing, imagine a wave in the ocean approaching a beach. The waves rises higher and higher. But once it reaches its peak, it begins to come down again. Imagine your urge is like the wave. It'll continue to grow in intensity but will then naturally go down again. It won't keep growing forever. See whether you can just be present with the urge as it rises and falls. Ride the wave. You may even like to imagine yourself surfing the wave, the urge. Make use of your breathing. Keep 'surfing that urge'. Perhaps see your breath like a surf board that supports you as you surf the wave of your urge. 9. Notice how you've managed to surf this urge for all this time. This tool is always available for you, no matter how strong your urge or however intense your emotion or whatever thoughts arise for you.

Interpreting thoughts and feelings You can do this visualisation exercise sitting or lying in a comfortable position:

1. Imagine you're walking on one side of a familiar road. On the other side of the road you see a friend. You call out his name and wave, but he doesn't respond. Your friend just keeps on walking into the distance. 2. Write down your answers to the following questions: • What did you feel in this exercise? • What thoughts did you have? • What physical sensations did you experience in your body?

By becoming more skilful in the way you use your mind, you can create the conditions to help rather than hinder the healing process. High levels of stress reduce the strength of your immune system, so any creative ways of reducing stress are bound to have some positive effect. Here's a very short exercise you can try that clearly demonstrates the link between your mind and body:

1. Make yourself comfortable sitting or lying down and close your eyes if you want to. 2. Imagine you are hungry and are about to eat your favourite food. You can smell the food and see it on your plate. Take a few minutes to imagine what the food looks and smells like. You take a piece of the food and begin eating. Imagine the taste of the delicious food in your mouth. 3. Notice any changes happening in your body. Are you salivating? Do you feel the desire to have this food now? Do you feel certain emotions manifesting themselves in your body? Are some parts of your body becoming tense or relaxed?

You don't need to face anxiety head-on straight away. You can take these steps over a period of days, weeks or months:

1. Observe how you normally react when anxiety arises; or if you're always anxious, notice your current attitude towards the emotion. 2. Consider the possibility of taking a more mindful attitude towards the anxiety. 3. Feel the anxiety for about a minute with as much kindness and warmth as you can, breathing into it. 4. Notice the colour, shape and texture of the feeling. What part of your body does it manifest in? Does the intensity of the sensation increase or decrease with your mindful awareness? Explore the area somewhere between retreating away from and diving into the anxiety, and allow yourself to be fascinated by what happens on this edge with your kindly, compassionate awareness. 5. Watch the feeling as you may look at a beautiful tree or flower, with a sense of warmth and curiosity. Breathe into the various sensations and see the sensations as your teacher. Welcome the emotion as you may welcome a guest, with open arms.

This short exercise (or form of torture, with all this talk about food!) again shows how your mind can directly have an effect on your body.

All you did in this exercise was use your mind to create images in your head. And yet all sorts of physical changes took place in your body. You may now even go off to cook this food you've been imagining. In the same way, using your mind in the right way can go on to create positive, healing effects in your body

Using meditations to rise and sparkle Here's an energising meditation, which is available as an audio track (Track 20), that you can practise whenever you want to focus on increasing your energy levels:

1. Sit or lie down in a suitable posture for yourself in this moment. You may choose to sit up straight in a chair, or lie down on your bed. 2. Adjust your intention of this meditation to simply be with whatever arises without trying to push things away or grab hold of experiences. Let your attitude be one of curiosity and kindness. 3. Feel the gentle rhythmic sensations of your own breathing. Feel the sensations of the breath from moment to moment, non-judgementally. Just allow the breathing to happen by itself. As you breathe in, imagine you're breathing in nourishing, fresh, energising oxygen into your body. Get a sense of this nutritious oxygen permeating your whole body, feeding each cell generously. As you breathe out, imagine any toxins being released out of your system. Breathe out anything that's troubling you, and let go of unhelpful thoughts, emotions, ideas, or sensations. 4. With each breath you take, feel more energised and uplifted. Essentially you're a container of energy, interchanging with the energy all around. Get a sense of this as you continue to breathe. Feel the exchange of energy with your surroundings - both a give and take process; a cycle. 5. Now come back to a sense of awareness of the breath: breathing itself. Enjoy the in-breaths and out-breaths with a spirit of acceptance, caring, and empathy. 6. As you come towards the end of this meditation, notice your transition into a normal, wakeful state. Continue to be mindful of this exchange of energy taking place with your surroundings as you go about your daily activities.

Using a depression warning system Writing out a depression warning system is a good way of nipping depression in the bud rather than letting it spiral downwards. Write down:

1. The warning signs you need to look out for when depression may be arising in you, such as negative thinking, oversleeping or avoiding meeting friends. You may want to ask someone close to you to help you do this. 2. An action plan of the kind of things you can do that are helpful, such as meditation, yoga, walking or watching a comedy, and make a note of the kind of things that would be unhelpful, too, that you need to try to avoid if you can (perhaps changing eating habits, negative self-talk or working late).

Understanding a mindful approach to addiction Once you're addicted, your actions are the opposite of mindful: they're automatic. This example describes a process that happens almost unconsciously each time you smoke a cigarette:

1. You're sitting at work on your desk and you feel a bit lethargic and tired. 2. You feel the urge to smoke a cigarette. It's actually a physical sensation in your body, but usually you don't know where the sensation is in your body. 3. You immediately think: 'I need to smoke.' (You don't often consciously register this thought - it just happens in your brain.) 4. You very quickly find yourself standing up and walking out of the building with the packet of cigarettes and a lighter in your hands (usually without awareness - a conscious choice is rarely made). 5. The act of taking a cigarette out, lighting it and drawing in the smoke happens quickly and automatically (you may be lost in other thoughts). 6. The urge is satisfied for now and the lethargy gone. You're rewarded with a feeling of pleasure (dopamine is released in your brain). The cycle repeats again in a few hours. Mindfulness offers you a way to identify the thoughts and emotions that are driving your addiction, and gives you a choice rather than just the automatic compulsion and action of depending on the addictive behaviour. You discover that just because you have an urge to do something doesn't mean you have to do it. You can just experience the urge until it passes.

Now list activities that give you a sense of mastery or pleasure.

Activities that offer a sense of mastery are those that are quite challenging for you, such as tidying up a cupboard, making a phone call you've been avoiding, or forcing yourself to get out of the house to meet a friend or relative. Activities that offer pleasure may include having a hot bath, watching a film or going for a gentle stroll.

Overcoming Addiction An addiction is a seemingly uncontrollable need to abuse a substance like drink or drugs or to carry out an activity like gambling.

Addictions interfere with your life at home, work or school, where they cause problems. If you're suffering from addiction, remember that you're not alone. In the USA, for example, 23 million are addicted to alcohol or other drugs. And over two-thirds of people who suffer from addiction abuse alcohol. The good news is, help is available. If you've tried and failed at overcoming your addiction, don't give up. There's hope, with all the support out there. Mindfulness is one of many ways to overcome addiction.

This is a powerful approach if you're dealing with an addiction. When you do manage to give up, let's say a drug, for a few days, congratulate yourself each day.

And when you end up relapsing on a bad day, tell yourself that you've made a one-off mistake and can go back to being drug-free again. Remind yourself that you've had four days of no drugs and one day having taken the drug. That's four out of five - pretty good! See whether you can manage a few more days without the substance - see whether you can sit with that urge a bit longer. See whether you can take the time to meditate, perhaps simply feeling your breathing, for a couple more minutes today. Be extra nice to yourself.

Physical disease, or dis-ease, isn't just a problem with the body, but a problem for the mind too.

As I explore in this section, your mind and body are inseparable - a whole. When you suffer from a disease, you need to look after both your body and mind to best manage your difficulties. You also need to consider how a sense of being whole can come about whatever happens to your body. Everyone's physical body perishes in the end - how can you live so that this process is dignified rather than full of stress, anxiety and the feeling of being broken?

Perhaps this analogy may help. Imagine a room filling up with water. You're outside the room trying to keep the door closed.

As more and more water builds up inside the room, you need to push harder and harder to keep the door shut. Eventually you're knocked over, the door flings open and the water comes pouring out. Alternatively, you can try opening the door very slowly at first, instead of pushing the door shut. As you keep opening the door, you give the water a chance to leave the room in a trickle rather than a deluge. Then you can stop struggling to keep the door shut. The water represents your inner anxious thoughts and feelings, and the opening of the door is turning towards the difficult thoughts and feelings with a sense of kindliness, gentleness and care, as best you can.

Breathing in, I am aware of pain

Breathing out, I am aware of pain.

Breathing in, I am aware of anger

Breathing out, I know I am not my anger

Breathing in, I am aware of anxiety

Breathing out, I know I am not my anxiety.

Breathing in, I am aware of pain

Breathing out, I know I am not my pain.

Breathing in, I am aware of sadness,

Breathing out, I know I am not my sadness

Breathing in, I am aware of tension,

Breathing out, I know I am not my tension.

Breathing in, I take things moment by moment,

Breathing out, this is the only moment.

The more kind and forgiving you can be with yourself when you relapse, the more likely it is that the relapse be a one-off.

But if you beat yourself up, thinking, 'Oh, I'm such an idiot. I can't even give up drinking. I'll never do it,' the worse you feel. And the worse you feel, the more you feel the need to find some false comfort in your addiction.

Think of your urge like a tantrum that a child has. If you give the child a sweet, they'll quieten down.

But they've learnt to be rewarded for screaming. So before long they'll have another tantrum. So what's the solution? Just to be nice to them, but don't to give them any sweets. Eventually the tantrum will stop. The next time they start screaming, if , again, you just hold them or hug them but don't give them any sweets, the tantrum will end sooner. Eventually they'll stop having tantrums altogether. Being kind to the child without giving them sweets is like being mindful of your urge without satisfying your urge.

Mindfulness itself is an ancient practice, going back at least 2,500 years.

But, clinically speaking, mindfulness is a new approach for overcoming addiction, and the evidence for the approach is at the very early stages of being gathered, although it's positive so far.

Nourishing activities make you feel uplifted and enthusiastic, giving you energy and joy.

Depleting activities drain your energy, making you feel low in vitality and dull in attention. Consider what you can do to increase the number of nourishing activities and decrease the number of depleting activities in your daily routine.

How much would you believe these thoughts right now if any one of them popped into your head?

How much would you believe them if any one of them popped into your head when you were in your lowest mood? These thoughts are attributes of the illness called depression, and aren't to do with your true self

Each time you ride out your urge, your craving gets weaker.

Each time you satisfy that urge with a smoke or a drink, for example, you strengthen your craving. Every small effort you make counts.

Studies have found one of secrets of those that manage to give up long term: self-compassion.

For example, people addicted to alcohol were less likely to have a major relapse if they were more forgiving of themselves when they had a drink.

Using mindfulness to cope with anxiety If you worry a lot, the reason for this is probably to block yourself from more emotionally distressing topics.

For example, you may be worrying whether your son will pass his exams, but actually your worry-type thoughts are blocking out the actual feeling of fear. Although the worry is unpleasant and creates anxiety, the thoughts keep you from feeling deeper emotions. However, until you open up to those deeper emotions, the worry continues

Contemplating Wholeness: Healing from Within

Get a sense of what being whole means for you, and as you read this chapter, continue to reflect. Mindfulness is about going to that capacity you have to be aware, whole and free, no matter how broken you feel your body to be. This is a totally different way of seeing what healing truly means, but seems to lead to a peace of mind conducive to feeling better.

Mindfulness helps you to see things from a bigger perspective. If, due to your disease, you feel low and down, out of control, and that you just can't dig yourself out of the hole that you're in, you probably feel depressed, isolated, lonely and afraid.

However, consider the same situation from a bigger perspective: remember that you're suffering in the same way as many others. You can become aware of both the suffering you feel and those aspects of you that are healthy and well. Although you may have a bad back, what about the parts of your body that are functionally well? Mindfulness shifts the fixed patterns of the mind and enables you to see from eyes of wholeness. Then perhaps you can forgive yourself for feeling down - you're human after all.

Breathing in,

I am aware I am breathing in, Breathing out, I am aware I am breathing out

I am aware of my body.

I am the awareness - aware of thoughts, feelings, my body and the world around me.' In this sense of wholeness, you experience a freedom from the chains of thinking 'I'm ill' or 'I'm incomplete,' to achieve the freedom of being, of resting, in the sense of 'I'm alone.' In this context, I mean alone as in 'al-one' or 'all one', the original meaning of the word alone. This is the opposite of feeling lonely and isolated. It's a feeling of being connected to yourself and the world around you

At one point in my career, I believed that I could do anything and everything. I took on more and more jobs and responsibilities.

I was doing more but achieving less. By the end of the day I was exhausted, my energy levels were very low and I was just about finding time to meditate, just to keep going. One day I woke up and thought 'enough is enough' - why sacrifice my health and wellbeing for the sake of yet another promotion and a bit of extra cash?

In other words, the more you resist or fight or deny or avoid your pain, the greater the suffering you experience.

I'm not saying it's going to be easy to reduce your urge to resist pain - resistance is the automatic response to pain. But through the tools and approaches in this book, you can learn to reduce that reaction and therefore begin to find relief from your suffering.

Accepting limits reminds me of what bees do. When a bee is stuck in a room, it continues to fly into the closed window, thinking that it can go through.

If the bee could see that the window is a limit, and it's not possible to get out that way, it wouldn't keep knocking into the window until it died. If you find yourself hitting limits again and again, and getting frustrated, be imaginative and try a different approach - don't keep flying into the window just because the view looks great on the other side. Try a radically different approach.

Acknowledging Your Limits You have a certain amount of time and energy on this planet. If you didn't have any limits on time, you'd live forever

If you didn't have any limits on your energy, you'd never need to sleep. So, how can you best use the time and energy you do have? If you try to do more and more, you eventually break down. You're better off becoming aware of your limits and acknowledging them, but continuing to push those boundaries every now and then, in a healthy and mindful way.

Don't confuse accepting or acknowledging your limits with feeling defeated.

If you suffer from a long-term health condition for example, you don't have to give up and curl up in the corner for the rest of your life. Accepting your limits means accepting that your body isn't well and you need to start taking small steps to begin improving your condition, as your doctor advises. You may need support from a group, or from your own friends or family. You also need to remember that you won't magically transform, and that therefore you need to work at accepting your limits slowly but surely.

Almost all people have a different response to this exercise, because they have a different interpretation of the imagined event.

If you're already in a low mood, you're more likely to interpret the situation negatively. Remember: thoughts are interpretations of reality, influenced by your current mood. Don't consider your thoughts to be facts, especially if you're in a low mood. Thoughts are just thoughts, not facts.

Pain can be emotional: feelings of sadness, loneliness, grief, anxiety or anger. Suffering is the way you meet those emotions.

If you're curious about them and almost welcome them rather than trying to push them away, fight or block them, you're unlikely to create much suffering. However, if you avoid the emotions through addictions like drugs or excessive alcohol use, to avoid these feelings, you're likely to increase your own suffering.

I began to reduce the responsibilities that I could reduce, and looked for more efficient and creative ways of doing the things I had to do.

In this way, I enjoy challenging myself, and testing my limits, but I don't overdo it.

Mindfulness encourages you to face up to all your experiences, including the unpleasant ones.

In this way, rather than avoiding anxious thoughts and feelings, which just makes them stronger and causes them to control your life, you begin to slowly but surely open up to them, in a kind and gentle way, preventing them building up out of proportion.

Using Mindfulness to Manage Pain Acute pain is a sharp pain lasting for a short time, sometimes defined as less than 12 weeks.

Medicine is quite good at treating acute pain. Chronic pain is pain that lasts for over 12 weeks, and doctors have a much harder time treating such a condition. Many consider chronic pain as one of the most underestimated health-care problems in the world today, having a massive effect on both the patient and being a major burden on the health-care system.

Worry is an example of experiential avoidance, described earlier in the chapter.

Mindfulness trains you to become more open and accepting of your more challenging emotions, with acknowledgement, curiosity and kindness. Mindfulness also allows you to see how you're not your emotions, and that your feelings are transient, and so it helps you to reduce anxiety. Mindfulness encourages you to let go of worries by focusing your attention on the present moment.

How do you treat yourself when you have a relapse?

Most people think that if they're hard on themselves when they accidently relapse, they'll get better. In fact, amazingly, the opposite has been found to be true in research.

Managing relapse: Discovering the surprising secret for success

Most people who want to give up an addiction are able to stop for a short period, but in a moment of difficulty or mindlessness they begin using the object of their addiction again. This is to be expected. Everyone's human and will mistakenly go back to the drug, drink or whatever.

Dealing Mindfully with Depression

Of all mental health conditions, recurring depression has most clearly been shown to respond to mindfulness. If the body of evidence continues to grow, mindfulness may go on to become the standard treatment for managing depression all over the world. This section explains what depression is and why mindfulness seems to be so effective for those who have suffered from several bouts of depression.

If you think, 'Oh, he's ignored me. I don't have any friends,' you're more likely to feel down, and perhaps your body may slump. If you think, 'He couldn't hear me.

Oh well, I'll catch up with him later,' you're unlikely to feel affected by the situation. The main purpose of the exercise is to show that your interpretation of a situation generates a particular feeling, rather than the situation itself.

Discovering urge surfing: The mindful key to unlocking addiction

One brilliant way of managing the urges that arise in addiction is called urge surfing. It's a different way of meeting the reactive behaviour of addiction. Acting on strong cravings, when in an automatic pilot mode, doesn't help you in the long term. By urge surfing, you don't have to act on the urge or craving that you experience.

Using mindfulness to change your relationship to low mood

One of the key ways in which depressive relapse occurs and is sustained is through actively trying to avoid a negative mood. Mindfulness invites you to take a different attitude towards your emotion. Depression is unpleasant, but you see what happens if you approach the sensation with kindness, curiosity, compassion and acceptance. This method is likely to be radically different to your usual way of meeting a challenging emotion. Here are some ways of changing your relationship with your mood and thereby transforming the mood itself.

Knowing the difference between pain and suffering

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. Pain is a sensation that you're bound to experience from time to time. In fact, pain is often a very useful sensation - without pain, you'd go around damaging yourself without realising it. If you've ever been anaesthetised in your mouth by your dentist, you know how easy it is to bite the inside of your cheek, even making it bleed, without realising.

A useful formula to remind you of the difference between pain and suffering is:

Pain x Resistance = Suffering

When you feel stressed or low in mood, choose a 'mastery' or 'pleasure' activity.

Prior to making your choice, carry out the three-minute breathing space meditation to help bring mindfulness to the experience.

You are not your illness. Laughter may be one way of reminding yourself of that fact, and mindfulness is another

Some days are better than others. Some days may be dark, and you may need just to hang on until things lighten up a bit. Remembering that 'I am not my illness' may help.

The following week, repeat the exercises, but this time for an unpleasant experience each day.

Remember, you don't need to have very pleasant or unpleasant experiences - even a small, seemingly insignificant experience will suffice.

Understanding depression Depression is different to sadness.

Sadness is a natural and healthy emotion that everyone experiences from time to time. If something doesn't go the way you expect, you may feel sad. The low mood may linger for a time and affect your thoughts, words and actions, but not to a huge extent. Depression is very different. When you're depressed, you just can't seem to feel better, no matter what you try. Unfortunately, some people still believe that depression isn't a real illness. Depression is a real illness with very real symptoms.

Suffering is different. Suffering is something you create yourself, often unknowingly.

Say you suffer from arthritis. Each morning, when you wake up, for a split second you just experience the raw sensation - the pain of having arthritis. Then, within a second or so, your mind begins to interpret the experience: 'That stupid disease. Why me? I bet I got it because of the unhealthy food I used to eat. It's not fair. I'm so annoyed! It's all my fault. What will happen in the future?' Unhelpful judgements, interpretations and predictions all lead to suffering.

This isn't a competition to go from Steps 1 to 5 but is a process, a journey you take at your own pace.

Step 1 is just as important, significant and deep as Step 5. Remember that these steps are a guide: move into the anxiety, or whatever the emotion is, as you see fit. Trust in your own innate wisdom to guide your inner journey

You can probe your experiences through the following exercise, which is normally done over two weeks:

Take a sheet of paper, or use your journal, and create four columns. Label them 'experience', 'thoughts', 'feelings', 'bodily sensations'. Under each column heading, write down one experience each day that you found to be pleasant. Write down the thoughts that were going through your head, the feelings you experienced at the time, and how your body felt under the appropriate columns. Continue this each day for a whole week.

This exercise from MBCT shows how feelings affect thoughts, and thoughts affect feelings.

The exercise is similar to the 'Interpreting thoughts and feelings' exercise earlier in the chapter, but focuses more on how you interpret situations depending on how you're already feeling.

Feel the fear . . . and make friends with it Eliminating fearful thoughts isn't easy.

The thoughts are sticky, and the more you try and push them out, the stronger the worries and anxieties seem to cling on. In this way, you can easily get into a negative cycle in which the harder you try to block out the negatives, the stronger they come back.

Traditional CBT encourages you to challenge unrealistic negative thoughts about yourself, others or the world. (Discover more in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy For Dummies by Rhena Branch and Rob Willson (Wiley).)

Traditional CBT encourages you to challenge unrealistic negative thoughts about yourself, others or the world. (Discover more in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy For Dummies by Rhena Branch and Rob Willson (Wiley).)

Mindfulness isn't about trying to get rid of your anxiety, or any other difficult experience. Mindfulness offers the possibility of developing a healthy stance towards your unpleasant experience.

The unpleasant experience is here, whether you want it or not. You can try distracting yourself in the short term, but this is tiring and tends not to work in the long term. The invitation of mindfulness is a radical one: to take a courageous, challenging step towards the difficulty, whatever the difficulty is, and see what unfolds. This act of acknowledgement changes your relationship with the anxiety and therefore gives freedom for that emotion to move on, when you're ready.

Listing your activities Make a list of all the typical activities you do in a day, such as preparing food, getting dressed, travelling to work, interacting with others, hobbies, sports, evening classes and so on.

Then label each activity as nourishing or depleting.

All the avoidant strategies can't make the pain go away, they just numb it for the time being.

This can be helpful in the short term to help you to cope, but by avoiding the painful sensations or emotions, you sustain and feed them. Suffering is something you can begin to manage and control by looking more carefully at the thoughts and feelings you're experiencing - the very act of turning towards painful experiences begins to change the level of suffering you have.

If you want to do the MBCT course on your own using this book, you can follow the eight-week MBSR course described in Chapter 9, and in addition do the activities in this chapter.

This isn't the same as doing a course with a group and a professional teacher, but gives you an idea of what to expect and certainly may help you.

Rising above Your Illness

To rise above your illness means to separate yourself from your illness rather than to identify yourself with the disease. In this way, you may become less overwhelmed by your condition.

Try reflecting on what you really want when you're in the midst of your craving.

Usually it's not the substance or behaviour you're craving. Maybe you're feeling lonely or stressed? Or maybe you want freedom from circumstances or emotions at this time?

Don't use mindfulness to try to chase certain pleasant experiences.

Whatever you experience in mindfulness practice is okay - the meditation isn't good or bad. The sense of wholeness is your true nature, right here and right now, not just in some exotic mindful experience. Experiences come and go, but awareness is always here, whether you want to be aware or not. Identify with that presence and you're immediately reminded of your own sense of wholeness

When you first suffer from depression, you experience negative thoughts, a negative mood and sluggishness.

When this occurs, you create a connection between these thoughts, feelings and bodily sensations. Even when you feel better, the underlying connections are still there, lying dormant. Then, when by chance you feel a little sad, as everyone does, you begin to think, 'Here we go again. Why is this happening to me? I've failed,' and so on. The negative thoughts recur. This triggers the negative moods and low levels of energy in the body, which creates more negative thinking. The more you try to avoid your negative thoughts, emotions and sensations, the more powerful they become.

Being with anxious feelings If you want to change anxiety, you need to begin with the right relationship with the anxiety, so you can be with the emotion.

Within this safe relationship, you can allow the anxiety to be there, neither suppressing nor reacting to it. Imagine sitting as calmly as you can while a child is having a tantrum. No tantrum lasts forever, and no tantrum stays at exactly the same level. By maintaining a mindful, calm, gentle awareness, eventually and very gradually the anxiety may begin to settle. And even if it doesn't go away, by sitting calmly next to it, your experience isn't quite such a struggle.

In mindfulness meditation you may at some point connect with your own deep, innate sense of wholeness.

You begin to touch a depth of relaxation, of peace, of calm, that you may not have been aware of beforehand. This encounter with your own wholeness is profoundly healing in the sense of feeling at peace with yourself and with an inner conviction that things are going to be okay, however they work out. Your ill heath, your body, your thoughts, the emotions that arise and pass away, aren't everything. They're a part of the whole. The thought, 'It's all my fault; I'm completely useless,' is just a thought, not a fact. When you begin to touch this inner wholeness, your illness becomes less threatening. You become more optimistic in both the present moment and the future. From your more detached, free and lighthearted stance, your perception of your predicament shifts, and you allow more space for your body to heal as best it can, while taking all the medical treatment as appropriate.

Finding what uplifts you

You can take control of your energy levels by taking active, healthy steps to raise your liveliness. Keep in mind that you want the kind of energy that's revitalises you rather than the kind that makes you overly excited! Too much of a 'high' eventually results in you crashing out as you burn your energy rapidly. That's okay from time to time when you want to have fun, but not all the time.

When you saw the mark as a spider, a whole series of changes took place in your body

You experienced the changes because of what you thought and interpreted the mark to be - in other words, because of your mind. When you realised it was just a stain on the carpet, a set of calming reactions took place. The object remained exactly the same. The way you changed your bodily reaction was by bringing curiosity to your experience and then switching on the light. Through awareness and curiosity, you begin to interpret things differently, to see them as they actually are rather than what you think they are.

Anxiety and panic can be due to a combination of factors,

including your genes, the life experiences you've had, the current situation you're in, and whether you're under the influence of drugs, including caffeine.

When you practise mindfulness, you practise an act of love. You're befriending yourself, slowly but surely

You're engaging in an activity for yourself, to look after and nurture your own health and wellbeing.

Consider the following scenario:

You've just been criticised by your boss for your work, and you feel low. You walk past one of your colleagues and are about to say something to him, and he says he's really busy and can't stop. Write down your thoughts and feelings.

Now consider a different scenario:

Your boss has just praised you for doing an excellent job. You walk past one of your colleagues and are about to say something to him, and he says he's really busy and can't stop. Write down your thoughts and feelings.

Alternative viewpoints

are the different ways in which you can interpret a particular situation or experience.

Calming Anxiety: Let It Be Anxiety is a natural human emotion characterised by feelings of tension, worried thoughts, and physical changes like increased blood pressure. You feel anxious when you think that you're being threatened.

d. Fear is part of your survival mechanism - without feeling any fear at all, you're likely to take big risks with no concern about dangerous consequences. Without fear, walking right on the edge of a cliff would feel no different to walking in the park - not a safe position to be in!

This section looks at how mindfulness can help with managing your anxiety and fear,

whether the feelings appear from time to time or whether you have a clinical condition such as generalised anxiety disorder (GAD), where you feel anxious all the time.

MBCT is a branch of a more general form of therapy called cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT),

which holds that thoughts, feelings and actions are intimately connected. The way you think affects the way you feel and the activities you engage in. C

According to the NHS, if you have an ongoing low mood for most of the day every day for two weeks, you're experiencing depression and you need to visit your doctor. The symptoms of depression can include:

✓ A low, depressed mood ✓ Feelings of guilt or low self-worth ✓ Disturbed sleep ✓ A loss of interest or pleasure ✓ Poor concentration ✓ Changes to your appetite ✓ Low energy

De-centring from difficult thoughts Practise the three-minute breathing space meditation (explained in Chapter 7) and then ask yourself some or all the following questions. Doing so helps you to de-centre or step back from your more difficult thoughts and helps you to become more aware of your own patterns of mind. The questions are:

✓ Am I confusing a thought with a fact? ✓ Am I thinking in black and white terms? ✓ Am I jumping to conclusions? ✓ Am I focusing on the negative and ignoring the positive? ✓ Am I being perfectionist? ✓ Am I guessing what other people are thinking? ✓ Am I predicting the worst? ✓ Am I judging myself or others overly harshly? ✓ What are the advantages and disadvantages of thinking in this way? ✓ Am I taking things too personally?

A couple of other helpful meditations to provide an energy boost are:

✓ Body scan. You can do this practice no matter how tired you feel. You simply need to listen to the Mindfulness For Dummies Track 9 while lying down on the floor, a mat, or a bed. Even if you're unable to concentrate for much of the time, something will shift. You may drop a stressful idea, you may drift into a restful sleep, or you may feel immediately energised by the end of the practice. (See Chapter 6 for a full description of the body scan.) ✓ Three-minute breathing space. This meditation (Track 17) is ideal if you don't have much time available. If you can find the time and discipline to practise this exercise several times a day, you'll begin to become aware of the kinds of thoughts and emotions running through your system, sapping your vital energy. (Refer to Chapter 7 for a description of the breathing space.)

Understanding why depression recurs Depression has a good chance of being a recurring condition, and to understand why, you need to understand the two key factors that cause mild feelings of sadness to turn into depression:

✓ Constant negative thinking (rumination). This is the constant, repetitive use of self-critical, negative thinking to try to change an emotional state. You have an idea of how things are (you're feeling sad) and how you want things to be (feeling happy, relaxed or peaceful). You keep thinking about your goal and how far you are from your desired state. The more you think about this gap, the more negative your situation seems and the further you move away from your desired emotion. Unfortunately, thinking in this way - trying to fix the problem of an emotion - only worsens the problem and leads to a sense of failure as depression sets in. Rumination doesn't work, the reason being that emotions are part of being human. To try to fix or change emotions by simply thinking about what you want doesn't work. Rumination is a hallmark of the doing mode of mind, explained in Chapter 5. ✓ Intensely avoiding negative thoughts, emotions and sensations (experiential avoidance). This is the desire to avoid unpleasant sensations. But the process of experiential avoidance feeds the emotional flame rather than reducing or diminishing the emotion. Running away from your emotions makes them stronger.

Not sure whether you're suffering from addiction? It can be hard to admit if you're addicted to something. But recognising and accepting your addiction is the first step in change. Ask yourself the following questions:

✓ Do you use more of the substance or participate in the activity more now than in the past? ✓ Do you experience urges or withdrawal symptoms when you don't have the substance or activity? ✓ Do you ever lie to others about your use of the substance or your behaviour? If the answer is yes, consider consulting a health professional for a more accurate evaluation and appropriate advice. A health professional can refer you to all sorts of support - many organisations can help in treating addiction. Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) and motivational enhancement therapy (MET) have been found to be very effective treatments.

Do the following with a mindful, gentle awareness:

✓ Engage in mindful physical exercise. Rather than draining your energy, regular exercise actually gives you a boost. This may be due to the release into your brain of a chemical called serotonin that helps you feel better and less frustrated or stressed. Health organisations recommend 30 minutes of vigorous physical exercise on a daily basis, which can include a brisk walk to the shops and back. Anything that gets your heart beating, your breathing rate up, and makes you a bit sweaty and out of breath is classified as a vigorous exercise. Read Chapter 7 for more about mindful physical exercise. ✓ Enjoy mindful, regular meals. Eating smaller portions on a regular basis rather than having a few big meals is healthier and helps to maintain your energy levels. Wholegrain rye bread, porridge, pasta, beans, lentils and noodles all contain energy that is released slowly into your body, helping to sustain you throughout the day. Eat mindfully too, by looking at your food, tasting as you eat, eating one mouthful at a time and not doing anything else when eating. ✓ Drink plenty of water. Aim to drink six to eight glasses of water a day, and more if you're exercising. Become more aware of your feeling of thirst, or better still, drink before the feeling arises in case you're already dehydrated. As you drink, remember how lucky you are to have water available to you, and feel the water in your mouth and how it has a cooling effect as it goes down into your stomach. ✓ Find your joy. Make time for activities that you enjoy. You may simply be working too hard. If you can't change that, see what small things you can do to make your work more fun. Spend time with friends and family that are 'mindful' - whatever that means for you. Try smiling more and do mindful laughter exercises (see Chapter 11). Tell someone a joke. Move towards laughter. Act in a silly or childlike way from time to time. Try and see the funny side of life if you can. ✓ Meditate. Both informal mindfulness and a formal meditation on a daily basis help to increase your energy levels. This is because mindful awareness helps ultimately to lower the stress you experience. As you continue to practise on a daily basis, your tendency to become stressed in the first place diminishes and therefore your energy levels increase to a healthy level. As your ability to be calm and focused increases, your energy becomes calm and focused too.

If you want to boost your willpower, try one of the following ideas suggested by Kelly McGonigal, author of a fabulous book called The Willpower Instinct, Avery Publishing Group, 2013:

✓ Get enough sleep. Aim for around eight hours if possible. ✓ Mediate daily. ✓ Exercise. Even a few minutes of walking is a great idea. You don't have to be too intensive. Make it mindful walking to make it even more powerful. ✓ Slow down your breathing to four to six full breaths a minute - that can boost your willpower when you need it.

The purpose of this exercise is to:

✓ Help you to see that experiences aren't one big blob. You can break down experiences into thoughts, feelings and bodily sensations. This makes difficult experiences more manageable rather than overwhelming. ✓ Notice your automatic, habitual patterns, which operate without you even knowing about them normally. You learn how you habitually grasp onto pleasant experiences with a desire for them to continue, and how you push away unpleasant experiences, called experiential avoidance, which can end up perpetuating them. ✓ Learn to become more curious about experiences instead of just judging experiences as good or bad, or ones you like or dislike. ✓ Encourage you to understand and acknowledge your unpleasant experiences rather than just avoid them.

Combating automatic thoughts Mindfulness encourages you to recognise and deal with negative automatic thoughts that can prolong depression or cause it to worsen. Consider the following statements (adapted from Kendall and Hollon's 'Automatic Thoughts Questionnaire', Cognitive Therapy and Research, 1980):

✓ I feel as if I'm up against the world. ✓ I'm no good. ✓ I'll never succeed. ✓ No one understands me. ✓ I've let people down. ✓ I don't think that I can go on. ✓ I wish I were a better person. ✓ I'm so weak. ✓ My life's not going the way I want it to. ✓ I'm so disappointed in myself ✓ Nothing feels good anymore. ✓ I can't stand this anymore. ✓ I can't get started. ✓ Something's really wrong with me. ✓ I wish I were somewhere else. ✓ I can't get things together. ✓ I hate myself. ✓ I'm worthless. ✓ I wish I could just disappear. ✓ I'm a loser. ✓ My life is a mess. ✓ I'm a failure. ✓ I'll never make it. ✓ I feel so helpless. ✓ My future is bleak. ✓ It's just not worth it. ✓ I can't finish anything.

When you experience a low mood, try one of these exercises as an experiment and see what happens:

✓ Identify where in your body you feel the emotion. Is your stomach or chest tight, for example? What happens if you approach that bodily sensation, whatever the sensation is, with kindness and curiosity? Can you go right into the centre of the bodily sensation and imagine the breath going into and out of the sensation? What effect does that have? If you feel too uncomfortable doing that, how close can you get to the unpleasant feeling in your body? Try playing with the edge of where you're able to maintain your attention in your body, neither pushing too hard nor retreating away. Try saying to yourself: 'It's okay, whatever I feel, it's okay, let me feel it.' ✓ See yourself as separate from the mood, thought or feeling. You're the observer of the sensation, not the sensation itself. Try stepping back and looking at the sensation. When you watch a film, you have a space between yourself and the screen. When you watch the clouds going by, a space separates you from the clouds. A space also exists between you and your emotions. Notice what effect this has, if any. ✓ Notice the kinds of thoughts you're thinking. Are they self-critical, negative thoughts, predicting the worst, jumping to conclusions? Are the thoughts repeating themselves again and again? Bring a sense of curiosity to the patterns of thought in your mind. ✓ Notice your tendency to want to get rid of the emotion. See if you can move from this avoidance strategy towards a more accepting strategy, and observe what effect this has. See whether you can increase your acceptance of your feelings by 1 per cent - just a tiny amount. Accept that this is your experience now, but won't be forever, so that you can temporarily let go of the struggle, even slightly, and see what happens. ✓ Try doing a three-minute breathing space as described in Chapter 7. What effect does this have? Following the breathing space, make a wise choice as to what is the most helpful thing for you to do at the present moment to look after yourself. ✓ Recognise that recurring ruminative thinking and having a low mood are a part of your experience and not part of your core being. An emotion arises in your consciousness and at some point diminishes again. Adopting a de-centred, detached perspective means you recognise that your low mood isn't a central aspect of your self - of who you are.

Making wise choices When experiencing a low mood, a depressing thought, a painful sensation or a stressful situation, practise the three-minute breathing space and choose what to do next, which may be:

✓ Mindful action. Go back to doing what you were doing before, but in this wider, more spacious, being mode of mind (Chapter 5 explains a being mode of mind). Do each action mindfully, perhaps breaking the activity into small, bite-size chunks. The shift may be very small and subtle in your mind, but following the breathing space, you'll probably feel different. ✓ Being mindful of your body. Emotions manifest in your physical body, perhaps in the form of tightness in your jaw or shoulders. Mindfulness of body invites you to go to the tension and feel the sensations with an open, friendly, warm awareness, as best you can. You can breathe into the sensation, or say 'opening, acknowledging, embracing' as you feel the uncomfortable area. You're not trying to get rid of the sensations, but discovering how to be okay with them when the sensations are difficult or unpleasant. ✓ Being mindful of your thoughts. If thoughts are still predominant following the breathing space, focus your mindful awareness onto what you're thinking. Try to step back, seeing thoughts as mental events rather than facts. Try writing down the thoughts, which helps to slow them down and offers you the chance to have a clear look at them. Reflect on the questions listed in the section 'De-centring from difficult thoughts'. Bring a sense of curiosity and gentleness to the process if you can. In this way, you're trying to create a different relationship to your thoughts, other than accepting them as 100 per cent reality no matter what pops up in your head. ✓ A pleasant activity. Do something pleasant like reading a novel or listening to your favourite music. While engaging in this activity, primarily engage your attention on the activity itself. Check in to notice how you're feeling emotionally and how your body feels, and be mindful of your thoughts from time to time. Try not to do the activity to force any change in mood, but instead do your best to acknowledge whatever you're experiencing. ✓ A mastery activity. Choose to do something that gives you a sense of mastery, no matter how small, such as washing the car, going for a swim or baking a cake. Again, give the activity itself your full attention. Notice whether you're trying to push your feelings out, going back to habitual doing mode (Chapter 5), and instead allow yourself to accept your feelings and sensations as best you can, which is being mode (Chapter 5). Bring a genuine sense of curiosity to your experience as you go about your activity.

Coping with pain Here are a few things to remember about pain when applying mindfulness to the condition:

✓ Pain can only exist in the present moment. You only need to cope with this moment now. By worrying about the rest of the day, week, month or year, you begin to create suffering for yourself. ✓ Tension increases pain. By becoming aware of the sensation of pain and imagining the breath going into and out of the area of pain, the tension naturally begins to release, thereby reducing the pain. However, if the tension stays, that's okay too - your intention is all you can control here. Become aware of the actual sensation of the pain itself. Notice where the pain is located in the body. Does it have an associated shape, size, texture or colour? ✓ Trying hard to reduce pain doesn't really work. (This is just like how trying to relax can create more tension.) By discovering how slowly but surely to acknowledge and accept your pain, your experience may change for the better.